5/10/2012 (9:14pm) 2 notes

She looms over me, equal parts terrifying and beautiful.  I feel naturally drawn to her, like a bee to honey.  I do not need to think to realize I want to be around her.   We are close, but we aren’t touching.  I can feel her breath on mine.  My face feels hot.  I have wanted her for a very long time; it feels like an eternity in my chest.  I want to say something, anything, to feel her arms around me.  Being so close to her, yet not touching her, I suddenly feel very alone.  She looks at me with what must be pity in her eyes along with what is probably mild contempt.  ”What?” she asks me, slight annoyance in her tone.  It sends me into a mild state of panic.  I feel my eyes widen as her face gets closer.  There is an ache in my chest as she draws near out of longing and out of fear.  Her breath and mine become one and the same and the ache intensifies.

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#dreams#life#etc#it took way too long to write this#the ending kind of sucks and is a lot less believable

1/29/2012 (12:19pm) 1 note

that was a fucked up dream

so I am in this corridor or maybe it’s an alleyway and anyway I’m approached by this girl and she’s a little taller than I am with long, dark hair and she kisses me and I’m too shocked to do anything and she leans into me and pushes me up against a wall and she breathes me in and fuck I just don’t know what to do and then she turns me around while I’m still submissive and she starts undoing my pants and at this point I try to pry her hands away but she leans into me again and handcuffs me and then pins me to the wall and presses one hand to my mouth, keeping me from shouting out while the other hand manages go get my pants around my knees and at this point I’m obviously turned on and she starts jacking me off while still keeping a hand on my mouth and I want to scream out or moan or run away or all of the above and she just nuzzles into my neck and tells me how much of a worthless slut I am until my stomach lurches and I finally come and her fingers are cool but my seed feels like fire erupting from me and it hits the wall and slowly moves down and my knees feel weak and I start to cry and my head presses up against the wall and it’s cold and I don’t really notice because I feel cold inside and she’s still holding onto my cock and stroking me but now she isn’t saying anything to me and instead she’s just listening to me breathe through my back and I’m sobbing because I feel so violated and torn up inside but I have never felt so beautiful and wanted in my whole life and after a while she leaves and I am alone again

don’t do coke

#personal#wow that was fucked up#don't read this#dream#dreams